Well, I haven't been writing on the site lately, I did publish chapter 3 few days ago but haven't written the blog and that's not a news because I often think of writing, I have the words in my mind but I just forget to put them down, this has been happening more recently anyways..
So, I wonder does every being have that need to talk, to socialize? because lately I have been having that "need to talk" moments but I also know it brings no good other than a momentary "good feeling", it's not happiness I am certain, it's just a good feeling and I used to crave for it. Slowly and steadily I did understand the mechanics behind it; it's just a part of human life. Yah, I know I am just breaking human socialization logically and there's no fun it, it's just something in my mind at the moment so I wrote it.
I have seen posters and people saying that one must talk to people when they are low in life or as some say mentally unfit at the moment, I wonder if talking really helps or not? Yes, you can have that weight lifted for a short time but after the talk won't it all just fall back again? Don't worry I am not discouraging the procedure, I am just uncertain if it ever actually worked. This is just my own personal opinion and I am not attacking anyone at all (not even myself).
Honestly, I have so much to talk about: some are for specific people, and some questions I want to clarify but you see, I know the outcome, it obviously looks I am assuming but I know the end result of it, call it experience or just a highly accurate prediction. So, I simply decide not to talk about unless asked to and be fine with everything ever . This is something new that I learnt and it really keeps me chill, doesn't even let me care about any deadline, anything to look for, I don't even care what I am doing at the present moment. I am simply happy for no reason and unbothered by anything that happens.
Weird, even for me; for somene who used to speculate on situations and be "negative" about assumptions, nothing bothers me anymore: well if it's too hot in summer the skin does irritate and things like that (you get the idea), problems that often bothered me are still there obviously but I can now simply overlook them and it's frighteningly simple! That doesn't mean I don't meet deadlines, I still do but if I don't, it's just not something I will think about. That odd habit where I would think of something even before it happened, or think about something that happened and could have been different doesn't bother me anymore, because I realized these are beyond my control and it has always been, I just didn't learn to accept them, and now I simply accept them all.
I maybe weird, or sometimes too irritating, or happy for no reason for some other but it just doesn't concern me. Don't get me wrong here, I am not saying one to be completely self-oriented and not give a shit about anyone or anything. I am saying accept the way you are, what others think doesn't really matter unless you know that something is bad with you, then you can rectify yourself for the better and own good: it's not called changing for others but it is changing for your own better self.
Nobody is perfect, so if I start thinking myself as perfect then that's called being in an illusion. So, accept that you aren't perfect and try to fix the errors you know you have, not from someone's perspective but from your own; an input does no harm, subdue that ego of your and it will bring greater good.
The same is true for a lot of things: grudges, hatred, holding on to certain aspects, there's so much more that people with certain experience doesn't want to let go. It does take time, and a trigger. The trigger is sometimes small, but often it's an illusion breaking one: when you lose something you hold dear, or when your beliefs are shattered, I am sure there are many such, these are strong ones and when you get into that situation, it might be hard but take it as an opportunity to break your own illusion of the world and step outside that sphere of knowledge that you feel comfortable in, and understand that the world is fascinating and the universe is intelligent, there are greater things than you and your problems into work.
So, have a smile, be happy, be blissful and be yourself.
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